Never a dull moment

So, I realize that I haven’t made a post since, yikes, mid-October?  Has it really been so long so quick?  According to my posting records and how many notifications Facebook gives me about updating my Digital Ambler page, apparently!

Normally, when I go into these slow periods when I don’t post much, it’s because I’m usually not doing much, since a lot of my writing is based on what I’m actually doing, studying, debating, researching, ritualing, and the like.  And yet, this time, that’s not as much the case.  While I haven’t been up to much proper ritual stuff, that’s not to say I haven’t been busy.  Besides the usual stuff like keeping an orderly household or keeping up with my full-time software engineering day job and visiting family and whatnot, there’s been a lot of stuff going on, too, not least of which I received several major further ceremonies in La Regla de Ocha Lukumí (a.k.a. Santería) to further my own abilities, license, and spiritual fortitude as a priest of Ogun.  (That, frankly, knocked me on my ass for a good month or so.)  Besides that, I’ve been doing plenty of research and reading and other legwork for a whole bunch of things:

  • Continuing to learn, study, and practice further elements of La Regla de Ocha Lukumí
  • The Akkadian/Babylonian anti-witchcraft ritual Maqlû, which I want to analyze and redevelop using a similar framework into a Hermetic or PGM-style curse-breaking and witchcraft-warding ritual
  • Investigating the origin of the letter- and name-divination techniques using Western geomantic rules (which I’ve previously written off before but may have a good lead to figure out where they came from and how to improve upon them)
  • Continuing to edit, improve, and add on to my geomancy textbook “Principia Geomantica” (yes, it’s still in the works! no, I don’t know when it’ll be ready!)
  • Preparing new tools for a Delphic Maxim oracle for my own use with Apollōn and Hermēs
  • Preparing consecrations of astragaloi sets and four coin sets for Hermaic divination
  • Preparing for a Mars consecration of carnelian bracelets as wearable talismans
  • Spending more money than I’m strictly comfortable with on academic books on various topics for niche and specialized research
  • The usual bullshit on Twitter

I also note that today happens to be Christmas Eve, which is also the feast of Adam and Eve.  Since I consider Adam to be the Earthy Forebear of geomantic practitioners (along with Daniel as the Fiery, Enoch as the Airy, and Hermes Trismegistus as the Watery Forebears), I wanted to share a prayer or invocation of Adam, but I don’t have one in a presentable format yet.  In the meantime, go read Dr. Cummins’ post about Adam and Eve and how they relate to magical praxis and theory and history; it’s a lovely read, especially for so fitting a day.  Perhaps by April 4th, the feast I give to Hermes Trismegistus, or March 24th, the feast for Gabriel the Archangel, I’ll have a set of prayers ready to share for geomancers with a more devotional bent to their practice.

And that’s all on top of the client work I do, fielding questions for guidance and doing readings for those who need it.  Speaking of, I’m also getting ready for 2019 yearly geomantic forecasts; stay tuned!  I’ll be doing a several-week special, to be announced later this week once Christmas itself has passed.

I’ve also been drawing up ideas to start a kind of subscription service; something small in exchange for a collective forecast every New Moon, plus communal discussions or impromptu teaching sessions on Discord every month or something.  It’s an idea I’d like to explore and see how it’d be received; if you’d like to give me your thoughts on that, feel free to comment below!  It wouldn’t affect the blog posts or pages any, at least not that I can think of, but if you’d like that little extra push from my end, it might be useful and worth your time and mine.

I’m not in the habit of apologizing for not posting; after all, it’s my blog, and it’s up to me and me alone to update it when I feel like it, however I feel like it.  That said, I do know that a good number of people are wondering where I’ve been, so I just wanted to let you know that between everything going on, everything I’m gearing up for, and a good deal of indecision about what to write about next (seriously my drafts folder is filling up with ideas, none of which are immediately appetizing for me to write about), I haven’t forgotten about you or the blog, nor have I fallen off the face of the earth!

Never a dull moment, indeed, but at least I’m doing well.  (Though I would like to go to the gym again at some point, had I enough time to do that on top of everything else plus commuting plus working plus sleeping etc.)  I hope the end of this interminable year is treating you all well, dear readers, and that the dawn of 2019 looks brighter than anything you’ve seen lately.

Pause

As I write this, I’ve got a number of candles lit and some used tealight tins waiting to be thrown out, cedar incense burning, Enya playing, and a cup of water on my desk helping me out of the last effects of a hangover.  I’m still working off a sleep debt from having to stay up until 2 a.m. occasionally from past consecration rituals.  My dishwasher is still broken and awaits being repaired on Tuesday, I need to find another repairman to fix a blinds malfunction, I’m scarce on funds until my next paycheck, and I’m wondering how many FBI/homeland security watchlists I’ve been put on for daring to wear Middle Eastern clothing in public in DC on the memorial weekend (which I somehow forgot).  The rain we had last week canceled more than one set of plans and completely shut down my commuter train on Friday due to flooding.

Either things have actually been busy this past week, or it’s felt busy enough to get even me a bit stressed.  But that’s alright, because it’s been worth it.

When we last left off, I had conjured Gabriel and Kammael successfully, Michael unsuccessfully, and began the process of consecrating my planetary talismans for my Table of Manifestation.  Since then, I’ve performed a number more consecration rituals (which will continue through Thursday), conjured Michael, Raphael, Tzadqiel, Haniel, and Tzaphqiel with varying levels of success, and began the consecration process for my big lead Saturn talisman for an election this coming weekend.  Maybe it’s just me, but trying to get a drawn-out series of consecrations done during appropriate planetary hours and interacting with the varied and sundry powers of the cosmos all while trying to keep up with mundane shit can really fuck with you.  I should have remembered my lesson from an earlier post: don’t work with radically different powers in quick succession (viz. air followed by earth), because it’s going to end either badly or hilariously.  I’m also reminded of a bit of advice from an astrological magic forum, that one should expect some electrical craziness when first working with Algol; the dust will settle down eventually, but there’s going to be an adjustment process.

That sort of stirring up the dust followed by adjustment is something that I kinda needed.  I’m sure I could have done much more with the four elements and their kings, princes, and spirits than I’ve done so far, but now that I’ve gotten acquainted and introduced properly to all of them and learned enough to be at least somewhat decent, I suppose it was time to get bumped up to another level.  This past week was the first time I worked with the planetary angels, and I got to experience who they are and what their spheres are like intimately (some more than others, based on how clear the connection was with them).  It might have been wiser to do maybe one conjuration a week, but I decided to take the fool’s leap and dive right in.  Swimming in the soft emerald undersea of Venus, sitting among the sapphire-pearl clouds of Jupiter, and walking past the orange-gold halls of Mercury are experiences I definitely intend on having again, as well as coming to know more about them and their roles in the world.  Still, maybe getting acclimated to all those influences all at once might have been overdoing it.  That said, conjuring Michael of the Sun today made up for it all.

Granted, I was hungover (beer hall birthday celebration in DC last night) and I was sore in my belly and neck.  The connection wasn’t great, and I didn’t bother to ask Michael about the sphere of the Sun or advice or anything.  However, I was able to feel what being in the sphere of the Sun was like.  Other experiences with the other planets caused a real change in my perception, but with the Sun, I didn’t notice a thing.  Things were still there and still as ever, everything was quiet, and everything just was.  I felt somewhat disappointed at first, expecting some sudden change, but then it hit me: that’s just what the Sun is.  It’s the center of the solar system, it’s the point of return over and over again, it’s the fulcrum for all the other planets.  I get that now, and I get how it feels: peace, truth, calmness, stillness, clarity.  After the craze and daze of consecrations and conjurations, the misfortunes of last week, and balancing out different parts of my life, that realization and experience was probably the most worthwhile part of the past week.

That sort of rest or, I dunno, pause definitely stuck with me today, and things have been smoother since.  I got my work needed doing today done, sorted out appointments for the week, and organized up my plans for the coming period of time.  Two of the talismans are completely consecrated and a third is finishing up as it soaks in the last of its consecrated light and incense.  What stress I had from the past week has almost completely evaporated.  I’ve learned and experienced a fair bit, and been alerted to a good number of past lessons in the process.  Now that I’ve gotten a much-needed breather, I can get back to Work.