Readings and consultations on indefinite hiatus

So this may come as a bit of an unpleasant shock to my readers and clients, but things have been heading in this direction for me for a bit, and there’s no need to mince a lot of words over this, so I won’t: I’m not going to be offering readings or consultations for the foreseeable future until further notice.  If you have an outstanding reading or consultation from me, I’ll work with you on getting it done or working around it as I can, but beyond that, I won’t be taking any new requests for the time being.  The Services page, the listings on my Etsy shop, and the commissions on my Ko-fi page have been updated/deactivated/closed accordingly (though you can still get my ebooks through Etsy or Ko-fi, of course).

Honestly, y’all, I’ve just been burnt out and running on fumes as of late, and for longer than I’ve realized.  While I know I’m good at what I do and I know of the good results that come about from what I do (or at least, so people tell me, which is genuinely appreciated), I find myself with less and less energy to take care of readings and consultations for others with everything else on my plate: rituals, writing for my blog, writing my planned books, studying for my own benefit and continuing education, community involvement online and offline, my actual job, my household, et cetera et cetera.  And, worse, whenever I’ve gotten a request for a reading or consultation, while I’m honored that people choose me over the abundance of other great readers and consultants out there, I have to admit that I have an increasing sense of dread and unwillingness to do the work—and that’s a problem, no two ways about it.  There’s no reason that the very act and practice that got me to where I am today to elicit such a response from me, since I do enjoy the work; I just haven’t enjoyed actually doing it for some time.  I thought that taking a break or two earlier this year would help, and they did, but not nearly enough for me to get to where I want and need to be to handle this work appropriately with the attention and diligence it deserves—heck, what you deserve as my clients and querents and readers.  Not wanting to do this kind of work reluctantly and halfheartedly, or with any hint of bitterness to cloud my mind or heart in the process, I figure the best approach is to just not do it at all until I’m at a place where I can handle it again, and instead give myself more time and energy to do so.

I’m not planning on going anywhere, of course, and will still be around to share my thoughts and ideas and research (whether by blog or by email or by chat or by tweet), but until I can find the desire and energy to take on the work of divination again, this isn’t something I’m going to do.  Instead, I’d rather recommend the following readers for you all to go to instead:

I’ve been mulling over making this choice for a while, and would rather not deal with these feelings of fatigue and reluctance while taking on more client work that I arguably shouldn’t right now.  I know at least some of you were hoping to get a yearly forecast in the coming weeks for the coming year, but I’d instead advise one of the excellent readers above for your needs along these and other lines, instead.  There are others I might recommend, too, I’m sure, but these are some of the ones who sprang to mind first whom I would personally recommend.

I thank you all for having been so kind to me, and I appreciate your patience and understanding in this.  I look forward to offering these services (perhaps even others!) in the future once I’m able to again, and when I do, you’ll know where to hear about it.  In the meantime, I’m going to take this opportunity to build myself up and my other projects some more.

New ebook for sale: Preces Templi!

Not that long ago, I put out an ebook, Preces Castri or “Prayers of the Castle”, being a prayerbook consisting of over a hundred prayers for a variety of devotional and ritual purposes, ranging from blessings of various ritual implements and supplies to invocations of the planets to general prayers and meditations on the divinity of God.  In many ways, I consider this to be a compendium of many of the things I’ve written, compiled, or composed based on existing ritual, grimoiric, and religious texts as part of my own spiritual work.  The thing is, however, that this text is…arguably not for all of my readers.  Not that this is a particularly advanced text—it’s definitely not by any stretch of the imagination—but the flavor of these prayers is largely Abrahamic in nature.  To be sure, I still consider all these to be solidly Hermetic in their foundation, but the word “Hermetic” can be used to mean any number of things, really, given how it’s been so mixed and remixed time and time again over the past 1500 years across so many religious traditions, Christianity and Islam notably among them.  As a result, many of those prayers in Preces Castri have a heavy Islamic, Christian, or otherwise Abrahamic monotheistic flair to them, which may not be so tasteful for all of my readers.  But, as I hinted when I published that text and on some of the more recent podcasts I’ve been on, that’s not the only kind of Hermetic work I do, not by a long shot.

The reason why I named that ebook Preces Castri, “Prayers of the Castle”, is given in the introduction to it.  Some time ago on Twitter, I gave some thought to how my own spiritual practice might be termed beyond simply “Hermetic”, and decided to use the ancient Egyptian city of Thēbes as a basis for naming it.  After all, Thēbes is the source for many of the papyri that form the collection we today call the “Greek Magical Papyri”, and was one of the two ancient capitals of Egypt, conveniently located in the middle area between Upper Egypt and Lower Egypt.  Although many Hermeticists might find that Alexandria to be the Egyptian source of so much of our tradition, I would rather give that to multiple cities throughout Egypt, with Thēbes at the top of the list.  Of course, Thēbes was just the usual Greek name for the city; towards the end of the classical period and into the Islamic one of Egypt, there were two other names for the city, one of which is still in use today:

  • Pape, from Coptic ⲠⲀⲠⲈ (earlier Egyptian p’ jp.t), meaning “the adyton”
  • Luxor, from Arabic al-`Uqṣur meaning “the castles”

It’s from these two names that I derived the terms “Papetic” and “Luxoric” to refer to the two styles of spiritual work I do, “Luxoric” referring to the more Abrahamic and monotheistic approach and “Papetic” to refer to the more pagan, Greco-Egyptian, and polytheistic approach.  Mind you, this is entirely a distinction I make for my own convenience, mostly for the purposes of organizing rituals and chaining prayers together (I find the whiplash from going between one to the other to be too jarring at times for myself), and is meant solely for the purposes of practical approaches rather than anything deeper regarding cosmology or syncretism without making use of the problematic terms “Abrahamic” or “pagan” to describe what it is I’m doing.  Still, all that being said, Preces Castri is a good example of the Luxoric stuff I do and have written about.  But what of the Papetic stuff, then?

Well, I’m happy to announce a new ebook for sale just for that: Preces Templi, or “Prayers of the Temple”, available through my Ko-fi store or to my Etsy store for US$18!

(Yes, I did basically reuse the ring design from the write-up I did of the Royal Ring of Abrasax ritual from PGM XII.  I had a hard time trying to make a companion frontispiece like the one I used for Preces Castri, and opted for a different approach.  It makes sense in the context here, trust me.)

As with Preces CastriPreces Templi (extending the meaning of “the adyton” to “temple” more generally) is a prayerbook that I’ve written, both from scratch or composed from existing sources (mostly the Corpus Hermeticum, the Stobaean Fragments, the Nag Hammadi Codices, and the PGM), or otherwise compiled from other sources (e.g. Stoic and Neoplatonic hymns or Egyptian votive texts).  Unlike Preces CastriPreces Templi is much more pagan and polytheistic in its outlook and approach, with a heavy Hellenistic (though not necessarily Hellenic) and Greco-Egyptian flair, and may be more fitting for those who eschew purely monotheistic or Abrahamic approaches to Hermetic magic and devotional work.  To be sure, I’ve certainly shared a few such prayers on my blog previously (like here, here, or here), but again, there’s much more in here (well over 100 prayers total!) that I haven’t shared publicly before:

  • Various prayers and hymns to God from or based on the Hermetic texts or other attestations of the prayers and invocations of Hermēs Trismegistos
  • The “Epitomes of the Divine”, a series of 21 ten-line stanzas on Hermetic doctrine for use in contemplation as well as daily recital across the three ten-day decans across a single sign of the Zodiac (or across the three decamera of a lunar month) and the seven-day weeks
  • General prayers for ritual work
  • PGM invocations to Aiōn as the god of the gods
  • Hymns to the various gods of the Hellenistic/Greco-Egyptian world, including original prayers to Poimandrēs, Ammōn, and Asklēpios-Imhotep
  • Invocations of the 36 decans
  • And more!

This prayerbook is intended to be used by anyone who operates within what might be termed a “syncretic Hellenistic approach”.  Consider the overall outlook of the various rituals of the PGM: it’s an incredibly mixed bag of stuff, calling on Greek, Egyptian, Roman, Jewish, Christian, Gnostic, and other powers using at least as many ritual forms from such traditions, switching between what we might consider to be monotheistic, polytheistic, or henotheistic, sometimes even in the same sentence.  As opposed to a more monotheistic or Abrahamic approach, this prayerbook is more geared towards those who are more freewheeling, open to syncretism, or outright polytheistic (though, at least for the “pure Hermetic” stuff, with a focus on a hierarchical single-god-above-the-rest-of-the-gods) approach.  Again, this is only a collection of prayers, not of rituals, but those who have even an ounce of ingenuity will be able to construct or adapt these prayers to their own ritual needs, perhaps augmenting what they already have or making new rituals with them.

This prayerbook is one that I’m really proud of and one that I’m genuinely happy to have put out—so what are you waiting for?  Head over to my Ko-fi store or to my Etsy store and get yourself a copy today, and I hope that these prayers serve you well in your own Work!

I was on not one, but two podcasts recently, so check them out!

I know things have been quiet here, and I haven’t been writing a lot—at least, not publicly on my blog, as I am working on a few other projects at the moment (including a less-Abrahamic companion to my recent Preces Castri prayerbook).  But that doesn’t mean I haven’t been wordy in other media, as well; I’ve recently been on two podcasts, and that might give you something to listen to instead of reading!

Last week, Douglas Batchelor (@DouglasWMiT on Twitter) over at the What Magic is This? podcast had me on his show, which was a great time.  Taking a welcome departure from the usual topic of geomancy I’m usually invited to talk about, Douglas and I had a great chat about what “classical Hermetic magic” means, how that relates to Hermeticism as a whole, and how to pick up these ancient rituals and make them work for modern practices.  Go and listen!

In addition to that great talk, the good Reverend Erik (@Arnemancy on Twitter) had me on his podcast (for the very first time, technically!) at Arnemancy!  We recorded this back in October and had an amazing time doing so, but it just went live today (or earlier in the week, as is the custom for his Patreon supporters).  Also taking a more Hermetic track, Erik brought me on to talk about my recent translation of Book III from the Corpus Hermeticum from earlier this year and what the process is like of translating such ancient works, along with a variety of other bits and bobs about the Hermetica and classical Hermeticism.  Go and listen to this, too!

Both of these podcasts are great times to be on, and greater still to listen to; these guys know their stuff in all regards, and I’m honored to have been invited to talk on their shows by both of them.  They both put out great content pretty frequently, both in podcast form and otherwise, so be sure to subscribe to both of them by whatever podcast media platform you best prefer, and support them on Patreon, too (What Magic is This? Patreon link here, Arnemancy Patreon link here) to make sure their powerhouses of content and discussion keep on powering on.

Just as a reminder, you can find a list of all the podcasts I’ve been on over on my About page, in case you’re interested in older stuff.  Whether you’re looking for the new content or the old, I hope you enjoy these awesome discussions I have with so many people!

New ebook for sale: Preces Castri (also now using Ko-fi Shop)!

Well, that was a pleasant break, if I do say so myself.  I took two weeks off from office work that I spent alternatively playing FFXIV or tending to my shrines for my birthday, and then just spent the rest of the month relaxing and taking things easy.  Admittedly, it’s hard to get back to a normal sleep schedule, given my natural propensity to be nocturnal and yet needing to be up for such trivial things as meetings with coworkers, but oh well.  Despite the crazy astro-weather we’ve been having, I hope you all had a relaxing time, too!

First, before we get to the main topic of this post, I want to mention that I’ve slightly redesigned how I offer my ebooks and services.  Before, I had my WordPress site set up to have payments through PayPal directly through the website, but recently, Ko-fi made a new feature, Ko-fi Shops, which I’m taking advantage of for my ebooks from now on.  This way, much as with Etsy, when you purchase an ebook from my store there, you’ll get a link sent to you automatically to download the ebook rather than having to wait for me to manually send it to you over email.  In addition, I’ve stopped offering services directly through my website, and instead offer them as commissions through my Ko-fi page (just click on the “Commissions” tab on the page).  As a result, I’ve reworked the Books and Services pages on this website to reflect how you can buy these things from me going forward.  If you’re interested in getting a reading or consultation (now that I’m off hiatus and getting back to Work), or if you’re interested in my ebooks (which you should be after reading this post if you’re not already), then check out my Ko-fi page!

Also, while knowing that there’re plenty of much more worthy recipients of your generosity and charity, remember that you can always support me and my endeavors by making a charitable contribution and donation to me through Ko-fi, whether you just want it to be a once-off thing or a repeating donation.  It’s by no means obligatory, of course, but if you find yourself exceedingly grateful and generous, please consider supporting me in the various costs and fees for Ko-fi Gold, Zoom, webhosting, books, classes, and supplies I go through in the course of my work.  Every little bit helps, and I’m deeply appreciative of all that my amazing readers to for me!

With that out of the way, I’m happy to announce a new ebook for sale: Preces Castri, or “Prayers of the Castle”, available through my Ko-fi store or my Etsy store for US$18!

As many of my readers know, the past three years or so have been an incredibly productive time for me when it comes to the writing of prayers and rituals, but as my practice has shifted and changed to match where I am along my own spiritual development, I realized that not all the prayers I had been writing were as useful as I had anticipated.  To be sure, there are some I still say frequently if not daily, or use in any number of ritual practices I have, but others either fell out of favor or never found a place at all.  I still find that having written them was deeply worthwhile, but otherwise, many of these prayers are just kinda…sitting around, doing neither me nor anyone else any good.  To that end, I decided to compile many of these prayers into an ebook, a bit of my own devotional writing and meditations, for those who are interested to make good use of them, or at least better use of them than I can.

These prayers are a collection of those that I’ve written from scratch, those that have been influenced by the various Abrahamic and monotheistic religious and magical traditions that I rely on in my work, from Judaism to Islam and from Spiritism to the Arbatel.  In addition to these, there are a few prayers that I didn’t write but are so useful that I couldn’t not include them in this vademecum of over a hundred pages, consisting of more than a hundred prayers.  Some of these prayers I’ve written or composed from existing sources are those I’ve already shared on my blog previously (like here, here, here, here, or here), but there are far more have not been shared publicly before, and I think it’s high time to share at least some of the fruits of my labors.  Between them all, there are plenty of prayers for a wide variety of purposes:

  • Various prayers and hymns to God, whether for general devotions or for specific needs
  • Prayers and invocations of the archangels and guardian angel
  • Prayers to the planets
  • Prayers for the dead
  • Prayers for the seven days of the week, the four solar points of the day, and the different points of the lunar month
  • Over two dozen prayer rules for the misbaḥa (Islamic prayer beads) for different entities and purposes
  • Prayers for ritual processes, blessings, and dedications of offerings
  • And more!

This prayerbook is intended to be used by anyone who operates within a roughly monotheistic or monolatric approach to divinity;  as such, the prayers within have been heavily influenced by Abrahamic prayers, especially the rich Islamic literature of supplications and other Qur’ānic verses, giving these prayers a distinctly Islamic flavor on top of the various magical and grimoiric sources that I drew on.  For that reason, it may not be to the tastes of all my readers, especially those who want to keep away from Abrahamic influences in their magic and spirituality, but I claim that there’s enough in this collection influenced by the PGM and other pagan sources that can be used by anyone who works within a post-classical Western or European approach to magic and spirituality.  To be fair, this is only a collection of prayers, not of rituals, but those who have even an ounce of ingenuity will be able to construct or adapt these prayers to their own ritual needs, perhaps augmenting what they already have or making new rituals with them.  (And yes, I do have plenty of other prayers I’ve been writing that aren’t nearly so monotheistic or Abrahamic, appropriate for a polytheistic, Hellenic, or Hellenized Egyptian approach, but those aren’t nearly as ready for publication.)

So what are you waiting for?  Head over to my Ko-fi store or to my Etsy store and get yourself a copy today, and I hope that these prayers serve you well in your own Work!