So, let’s see. Deb’s got three things for us to discuss for the New Year New You project for this prompt, so here goes my responses and thoughts.
- Cleaning house. My apartment is actually pretty spartan, all things considered; my living room has a coffee table, a side table with a lamp and some plants on it, and a couch, and a low shelf with some bottles of wine on it. Beyond a series of fliers of Christopher Walken’s face on one of the walls, there’s nothing else in there. My kitchen is well-stocked on cooking utensils but light on electrical appliances, but everything gets used sufficiently enough to justify keeping it, save for my apple/potato peeler. My own room is slightly more furnished, but I’ve got a lot of books. I haven’t read a good deal of them yet but will, one at a time, others I keep for sentimental value or because I like to reread them once every so often, and still others I keep for reference. If anything, I need another set of bookshelves to store them all, since I also use shelves to store magical materia and tools. My closet is, understandably, the fullest room in the flat, and is mostly clothes and extra candle holders, crafting supplies, and miscellaneous household goods and fabrics. I wear all of my clothes tolerably often, but there are a few I know I don’t wear due to size or stains. My housemate and I are neat freaks and he’s borderline OCD. I go around cleaning (sweeping, vacuuming, dusting, wiping, sanitizing, etc.) a few times a month, and do the big stuff (tub, sinks, toilets, rails, polish countertops, etc.) at least once a season, and I asperge the house with holy water regularly (but don’t often do protective stuff, just cleansing). I just reorganized my desk today and got some of the dust off it and my altar nearby, but beyond that, my house is generally very clean. I have a lot of cooking and magical supplies, but I go through them all periodically and do, in fact, use them all up. I dislike throwing things out like that, so I make a point of using them however I can (even if it’s ancient but still useful).
- Spending my time. I spend about eight hours during the weekdays at work, save for one day a week when I work from home; the commute takes about an hour each way (woo DC transit). I sleep about six or seven hours a night. That leaves about seven hours leftover on an average day. Although I don’t have a smartphone, I do check it habitually for texts and the time; when I’m home, I’m nearly always on my computer on the internet, chatting or reading blogs and cycling through the same few sites laughing at old jokes and reading old texts. Surprise, the Internet’s a major drain on my time and productivity (something I’ve noticed many times before). I’m not on too many social networking sites, but the ones that I’m on do distract me aplenty. Email, too, for that matter. At least I don’t have a TV to speak of, nor do I play video or computer games anymore. I go out once or twice a week, usually, to see/hang out/smoke hookah/drink with friends, which can be awfully nice. I spend at least 45 minutes each morning in daily practice (prayers, offerings, and meditation), and do other things throughout the week as needed.
- Rocks and restraints. I usually have a list of my faults on hand, but now that I’m writing this prompt, I have a hard time thinking of what’s actually holding me back from getting shit done. Personality-wise, I can be lazy, awfully so, in the sake of enjoying what can be enjoyed right now. I like sleeping in, which can be necessary sometimes when I’m not sleeping enough during the week; I like to eat, which makes fasting for rituals and workings more of a fight with myself than not. I don’t have an addictive or attached personality, but I know I can be overly critical of others or of minor events that other people can more properly see at a zoomed-out level. I forgive easily, but have and do avoid people if I dislike them so that I can avoid confronting them. More than anything else, I like being distracted, though my guilt over not being productive enough afterwards isn’t enough to completely get my ass out of my chair. Although it’s not exactly a rock here, I like being overgenerous with my time and resources, and like to pay for others or hang out with them for their sake alone.
Based on all the above, I think a suitable list for things to knock off before, or at least get started by, the full moon in late January would look like this:
- Go through all my clothes, separate out what I don’t/can’t/won’t wear anymore, and donate it.
- Get rid of all useless candleholders, leftover jars, and other small things in my closet. Donate the nice ones and recycle the junk.
- Make Fiery Wall of Protection and Abramelin oils to properly protect my home.
- Start cooking more beans, rice, and bread to use up those giant bags of them in the kitchen.
- Get rid of Facebook. I was going to do this anyway at the end of December, but really, get rid of it.
- Cut back on txting/tweeting/emailing/chatting, and all non-work non-research computer use. Clean out the bookmarks list. Entirely cut out morning internet/phone use, and cut out pre-bed internet/phone use.
- Switch browsers to something simpler (from Chromium to surf, which doesn’t allow multiple tabs, bookmarks, or much at all).
- Meditate twice a day, not just once. I’ve got plenty of time in the evenings.
- Read a bit each day, both to enjoy my time, learn, and get through my books.